Wake Up, Dreamer!

The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began,
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow if I can…

Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many path and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say

We wake up every morning and sleep every night with the thought of success in the mind, to run as fast as we can, to be active as more as we can, to be known as much as we can. Making friends as we see through their credentials, being on the side that’s in power and the buttering of the Profs for those marks ‘which matter’.  But, some of us still dwindle in their pasts, in what could have been, the run away from that stalker named ‘Fear’, the reluctance to accept and the acceptance of the way they are or things that are.

Dreams are an undulating form of our thoughts, our wishes and our subconscious. We feel inspired with their heights, we feel threatened by their obscurity, and we crave their exhilarating existence-however virtual and fear sometimes the dark it penetrates.  Personally, dreaming makes me vulnerable, I wake up wanting something more, but that I feel is the essence, I feel a purpose of pushing myself more for next 24 hours.  Sometimes, some days we are wayfarers in the Neverland where we experience remorse and contempt and seclusion. Why is that?

In Life we have faced a lot of problems, some petty and others huge and fortunately we will continue to do so.  What has happened is either great or unwanted. But it has happened! I need not be a mind power trainer to tell this, Life is always now and ahead, being an optimist is enough. But those who face problems must remember that they are someday, sometime destined to do greater things, to affect lives of people and places like yours right now.  And perhaps it is an opportunity for you to make yourselves up for it.

Eagles' Inspiration

I give an example of an Eagle here. An eagle can live a life up to 70 years. At the age of around 35, its beaks and claws get folded, get old, its feathers get bulky and it then experiences what can perhaps be the last flight of precipice in life. It then has to take the toughest decision of its life, to die like this or to have a rebirth through struggle and pain. For, in order to live more it has to undergo 150 days of hell. It has to first knock off its beak in the rocks by pecking continuously till a new beak grows. Then it has to pluck its old feathers one by one in what is really painful cleansing to let the new ones grow. At the end of 150 days if it can survive those, it can then live a life of 35 years more. A New life! A rebirth!

We face situations every time; in college, in sport, in career and in family. But most of all it is necessary for us to get over things which have masked a sense of failure in our hearts. For, there is not greater failure than accepting one and not improving. Sometimes it isn’t wrong for us to let go of things which we are obsessed about and play a waiting game. To sit back and look at things from a critic’s way and evaluate. Things happen, good and bad but it for us to get over them and live ahead.

Take that extra step, or wait for that perfect time. Try not to percolate into what is self denial, into self contempt, into a stage of void. No one likes you there! So even if it seems objective to think it like this, a good thought, a need, a want in the morning isn’t bad for starters.

Or still round the corner there may wait
A new road or a secret gate,
And though we pass them by today,
Tomorrow we may come this way
And take the hidden paths that run
Towards the Moon or to the Sun.

Halo..

I heard this song sometime ago.. I liked it very much. I don’t know somehow i feel like sharing it.

It helps..

Someone gave it to me. and i give it for all to hear.

Is it wrong to make a mistake?

It isnt.. It wouldn’t be.. But be sure what you want before its late.

For we are.. What we are.. and We will be.. We just will be more.

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One Tree Hill

Verse 1
I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there’d be sunshine everyday,
I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I’m so up high that I can’t see the ground below,
So help me down you’ve got it wrong, I don’t belong there.

Chorus:
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so
you wouldn’t say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Verse 2
I always said that I would make mistakes,
I’m only human, and that’s my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don’t be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don’t belong there.

Chorus:
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so
you wouldn’t say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It’s only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a
I wear a
I wear a Halo

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so
you wouldn’t say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Haaaa ha-ha halo (x9)

My Belief . . .

From past some months, i am constantly being pulled by this topic on Beliefs, by noone but myself, whenever i come across some writing or view point. So few days ago when i came across this article in the Times about atheism or read one by a fellow blogger, whose writing i am following a lot off late, i felt i am sort of repelling the idea of putting forward my own thoughts.

(…Please ignore my style of long sentence formations…)

I believe in Religion, I believe in God,  I am Vaishnava- Hindu, I feel the need to so and at the same time I feel it advantageous to do so. I need inspiration, I need my Conscience to help me do the right and ignore the wrong. I need to develop my spiritual thought for it would help my mental strength and makeup. I wish and above all I pray. WHY?? BECAUSE??

For all the reasons and some unexplained above…

Believer

I do not like people who accept or for that case negate a thought or an idea without any insight or knowledge about it. If believing is based upon blind faith or following then I am Sorry I have got the definition wrong and do not wish to correct it. Beliefs are in real terms based upon your experiences and knowledge. They are a reflection of your mind and personalities. If i say, my motive or purpose of believing is based upon self realization, mental strength and inspiration then i have my own right reasons.

I have friends who are atheists, some who are agnostics and some who are believers; all having staunch or flexible natures, but I always felt its reasoning that justifies once beliefs. All the same, i let them have their beliefs and pray they let me keep me mine, for this matter is no national consensus or a mass propaganda.. Its individual.. Its subjective..

So my message to others… ???

Think and know about what you feel is right. Somethings are above our manual reasoning, whereas others could be understood, but based on entirety of combination of knowledge, facts, experiences and purpose, form your beliefs. World is at the same place it was 2000 years ago in the human thinking index, its just the media and surroundings which have changed and which influence us. Atheists, agnostics and believers existed then, do now and would do so ahead. Do what makes you Happy and Joyous and not what would people think about you.

Be Light

Hindus, Muslims and Christians are not wrong in their beliefs, its just that people with more moderate views and more extreme views have grown up and we do not have the complete insight into any belief. There is no taboo now or rather pronounced freedom of thought exists. It is good, for it liberates us, not from reasoning though.

So of all the reasons i believe in it for the sake of knowing it and realizing the truth about my beliefs.

Try and get that and then BELIEVE!!!

A Something as ‘Remembrance’

My Brother has come home.. My brother has come India.. My dearest bro is with me..

As i sit in Ahmedabad with bro here, who came from London 2 days ago, for a fortnight, and me bunking the whole week, with a special kinda health problem which i have and which i would need to show to the lecturers… ( )

I was seeing this serial the other day- One Tree Hill and came across this saying from its pilot character, “Most of our lives are a series of images, they pass us by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.”

Ever had such feelings when you had seen something and felt a sense of nostalgia or a term I call ‘REMEMBRANCE’ ?

Memories down the lane

For example, you would remember how you used to jump around in childhood or the grounds or staircases where you used to play, exactly the spots and times of the day. Some would also remember the exact feelings when they would have got hurt or had had a minor accident, some stitches or a fracture; the taste of that nervousness and fear or anger in your mind stays fresh and afloat. What is that feeling? Is it really helpful? Is it Good or Bad?

I feel, its something abstract, just something which has no quantity like Love or Hatred, something which has no Objectivity or articulated value. Infact they are meant to be remembered and felt. They are meant to be revisited and understood from the very essence of difference between now and then, between the times from where we have grown. They are the moments which define Life!

So there again, I was remembering the times of childhood we spent, the events and incidents, good and not so good, and I came across many such. We all do!

I remember my grandmother and her rituals; she’s a staunch vaishnava and a disciplinarian. She hasn’t eaten outside home for eons; she has barred herself from movies and fashion. She is devoted worshiper of ‘Thakurji’ or Shrinathji. Sometimes as I belong to a diff. generation, I find it lame, doing so much so, but perhaps its that discipline and mark of love that defines one to live life without self-interests or lust but that set of memories one had in past.

I remember how I used to play with my neighbour Shardul, how we used to rakhdu-fy till late evenings, some incidents where i would have had a beating or fights, kite flying, pup raising and many such childhood ex’s. Similarly one would remember the tutions; the Farm side ex’s at Rajkot, night outs, etc. ….The list goes…. My first road accident, first time Porno view, etc.. It would wrong if i wouldn’t be honest so incl. the last two ex’s.

Some have this practical sense of thinking or ideology, where in they do not like to drift into their past or even compare it with present. Somehow it makes sense as well. Why to care much about things that do not matter much? Why to repent on things which cannot be changed now? They are right. But again is everything to be seen in objective sense, does everything have to be productive or tangible? And even if one drifts and retrospects into life, it is the sense of closure which must prevail upon him/her, rather than avoiding the very thought.

Probably this is rhetorical piece of philosophy with no relevance for some and not so commentable topic for others, but I feel its not for a sense of talk but for a sense of understanding.

Today i remembered few momentous times from my past and it helped me feel good. That has satisfied me. I feel Happy. Perhaps tomorrow, i would remember today and have some feeling; maybe happy, maybe not. But i wouldn’t find myself wondering why  did i have, ” Something as Remembrance! “